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It has been an uber long time since I haven't posted on lj. Sorry lj I have been using myspace. Wow a lot has happened since the last time. Liking new people feeling new things. New highs new lows. Let me start off with my confusion Jake told me something this week that did not make me happy at all. If you know who I like then you would know what I'm going through. I want to ask her whether she does or not, which I know she probably doesn't but idn. Anyway it sucks though because maybe she thinks I am not boyfriend material, but I cannot see why not. I am sweet, I write poetry, I am not like most guys. Trey, Jessi, Lily, and Morgan all agree. I don't know what it is. I am trying to have more confidence but sometimes I don't know what I don't possess. But I guess I will move on if I find out that my fears are confirmed. It sucks though b/c I have liked since like May, but I will just find someone. I hope I get to go to the Panic! concert soon. Love Ya
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Getting excited about leaving but I am going to miss everyone a lot. I really don't know what I am going to do in Oregon b/c my parents aren't giving anything away, but they its going to be fun and wtvr. I hope it is. Yeah I think I pretty much ruined it with the girl I liked which sucks but what can you do. But I guess I can look at it as I haven't really known her for that long and I guess that can change. But she likes a person that my friend Furry was going to fight. B/c that person was being a dick and pouring water on Jessi. What can I say. Some people are like that and some dude flipped me off today and I didn't even know who it was. Well anyway I am going to go luv you guys
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I haven't updated in forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yeah nothing much going on here except i am going to Oregon in 5 days it should be fun. I haven't watching the World Cup non stop thanks to Jake and I am going for us even though we suck and Germany. Oh and to update you on who I like Jake and Jack know and a couple other people but it's alright. Jake burned me the Angels and Airwaves cd and my cousin got the AFI cd. Well I am going to go respond cuz Im back
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Happy Birthday Jenny!!!
I am still really confused about stuff and I don't know what to do but idn i guess I hope to figure it soon!! I mean I honestly don't know what's going through my mind right now. I am somewhat excited for tomorrow though b/c i get to debate finally and i want to. Today for the most part was except the fact that I was feeling sick as crap and really tired. This weekend was okay but since it snowed I couldn't go out and get Jenny anything. My mom was in the hospital again and it makes me angry b/c she didn't leave the same guy who emotionally abused her and then finally he got drunk and physically abused her. And I told her a long time ago that she needed to get rid of him and she didn't listen and now its too late. She is moving back up to New York and I hope that will help her mindset and everything. But idn I finally didn't sugarcoat was I feeling. And also she is on pain medication b/c of her stress and kidney problems. And when she is on medication I can't understand her. Urgg!!!!! Oh yeah and my sister got into a fight at a German club. And she got kicked in the ribs I believe but she is okay now!! Well i am going to go
Ian
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Wow I haven't updated in like forever. Nothing much going on here though I got done with my AP homework a couple hours ago. I don't know if I took good enough notes either. I love that class though debating has to be the best thing ever. I love my group too. Liz, Morgan, Meghan, and Jack are the greatest group partners ever. This weekend has been pretty boring for the most except tomorrow I am going bowling and shopping with Will in Williamsburg. That should be fun. I miss Jenny though I thought we were not doing well for a couple of days there but i hoping everything will work out the best. I just miss hanging out with after school. I miss the parties too. Me and Stephen Harvey were joking around how it would be cool to have a rave!!!! But We need rions help with that seeing as hes been to soo many. I also picking up an ejay so I can make electronic music on my computer which would be awesome. Bryant would probably steel it. I have to figure out what im doing for The Super Bowl. I am probably just going to stay home and watch it on my plasma. Well its late and i have to get up. Good luck ap friends lol.
Love ya guys
Love you Jenny
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| Life is Good!!! Love you baby!!! |
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Life is good what else can I say. Today was swell I brought some hot chocolate and it warmed me up. My team came back in football with the help of Stephen MacCauley. Second period sucked b/c we had to do questions the whole time. Then third period sucked b/c we had to do SOL review. Lunch was swell B/c Hannah, Stephen, and I played cards and i came in second for like the first time. And Stephen and Hannah both won a game. Fourth was boring and i had to be in the light box for an hour and a half. I dislike the light box a little more although Cassy and I talk about a lot. Like her going to college and the crazy partys around Louisa. Especially at twin oaks. lol. But the best part was the news that Jenny could come on Saturday so we can lay and snuggle!! I love that!! And kisses!!!!!!! I love that even more. I feel bad b/c jessi stephen and hannah all got me x-mas gifts and i don't have any b/c mom was supposed to send some but never did.
I have a new user pick!!!! lol! stewie is awesome
Love you my angel
with a big heart and kisses
white chocolate rules!!!!
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| Three Month Anniversery!!! But sad as well survey thingy too |
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Are You...
Understanding: yes
Open-minded: yes
Arrogant: no
Insecure: soemtimes
Determined: yes
Musically talented: no
Interesting: dunno
Hungry: No
Casual: yes
Friendly: yes
Social: yes
Socially noticed: dunno
Underestimated: yes
Unmotivated: nope
Procrastinating: yes
Strong: kinda
Special: i don't know in jenny's eyes
Gifted: yeah
Smart: book smart
Moody: sometimes
Childish: sometimes
Independent: sort of
Up for a challenge: yes
Hard working: sometimes
Organized: hell no
Healthy: kinda
Emotionally stable: only when i can't see jenny
Shy: nope
Difficult: I hope not
Lacking vocabulary skills: soemwhat
Attractive: idn
Aware: not really
Bored easily: heck yes
Messy: seomtimes
Thirsty: yes
Gullible: very
Responsible: yes
Obsessed: on some things like love
Angry: no
Sad: no
Happy: with jenny
Convincing: nope
Careful: not really
Trusting: Yep
Contradicting: sorta
Careless: it depends
Schizophrenic: i p;ayed schizo parts in plays
Talkative: yeah
Curious: yes
Indecisive: seomtimes
Legal: maybe
Original: sometimes
Different: Probably
Unique: yes
Ignored: no
Reliable: Very
Content: wit jenny
Optimistic: yes
Polite: when i have to be
Deep thinker:always
Self-disciplined: yes
Sleepy: all the time
Lonely: not at all
Mortal: i feel immortal with jenny
Regretful: no
Have you...
01. Bought everyone in the pub a drink: no
02. Swam with wild dolphins- no
03. Climbed a mountain- dont think so
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive- i wish
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid-no
06. Held a tarantula-no
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone: hopefully with jenny lol
08. Said "I love you" and meant it- yes
09. Hugged a tree- no
10. Done a striptease: no but the only one i would do it for is jenny
11. Bungee jumped- that would be cool
12. Visited Paris: i want to see the eifel tower with jenny
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea: dont' remember
14. Stayed up all night long, nope
16. Gone to a huge sports game: nope
17. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa: no
18. Grown and eaten your own vegetables- yes
19. Touched an iceberg:no
20. Slept under the stars-Yes
21. Changed a baby's diaper:yes
22. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon:no
23. Watched a meteor shower- can't remember
24. Gotten drunk on champagne:no
25. Given more than you can afford to charity:no
26. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope-Yes
27. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment-Yes
28. Had a food fight-Yes
29. Bet on a winning horse:no
30. Taken a sick day when you're not ill-Yes
31. Asked out a stranger-no
32. Had a snowball fight-Yes
33. Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier-no
34. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can-Yes
35. Held a lamb-no
36. Enacted a favorite fantasy-no
37. Taken a midnight skinny dip-no
38. Taken an ice cold bath-Yes
39. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar-no
40. Seen a total eclipse-no
41. Ridden a roller coaster-Yes
42. Hit a home run:no
43. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days- no
44. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking-Yes
45. Adopted an accent for an entire dau- yeah british
46. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors:no
47. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment-Yes with jenny
48. Had two hard drives for your computer-no
49. Visited all 50 states:no
50. Walked barefoot in public-Yes
51. Taken care of someone who was shit faced-no
52. Had enough money to be truly satisfied-Yes
53. Had amazing friends-Yes yes yes!
54. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country-no
55. Watched wild whales-no
56. Stolen a sign-no
57. Walked in the woods at night without a flashlight-Yes
58. Taken a road-trip-Yes
59. Rock climbing-Yes
60. Drank alcohol- yes
61. Midnight walk on the beach: nope
62. Sky diving-no
63. Didn't get a chance to say goodbye to somebody-Yes and it sucked
64. Been heartbroken longer then you were actually in love: yeah but now that has changed b/c now im with the most amazing person in the world!!!!!
65. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them-no
66. Visited Japan-no
67. Benchpressed your own weight-dunno
68. Milked a cow-Yes
69. Alphabetized your records- no
70. Pretended to be a superhero-Yes
71. Sung karaoke-Yes
72. Lounged around in bed all day:yes
73. Posed nude in front of strangers:no
74. Snorkeling-no
75. Got it on to "Let's Get It On" by Marvin Gaye:no
76. Kissed in the rain-yes
77. Played in the mud-Yes
78. Played in the rain-Yes
79. Gone to a drive-in theater:yes
80. Done something you should regret, but don't regret it-yes
81. Visited the Great Wall of China:no
82. Discovered that someone who's not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog- yeah
83. Dropped Windows in favor of something better:no
84. Started a business:no
85. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken-no
86. Toured ancient sites:no
87. Taken a martial arts class:no
88. Held a snake:yes
89. Smoke a ciggarette- yes
90. Gotten married:no
91. Been in a movie: no
92. Crashed a party-no
93. Loved someone you shouldn't have: Yeah once but now I don't have to worry about that b/c i have a goddess
94. Kissed someone so passionately it made you or them dizzy- yes
95. Gotten divorced:no
96. Had sex somewhere other than a bed or a couch: no
97. Gone without food for 5 days-No
98. Made cookies from scratch-Yes
99. Won first prize in a costume contest:no
100. Taken a shower with somebody:no lol
101. Gotten a tattoo:no
102. Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on-no
103. Rafted the Snake River:no
104. Been on television news programs as an "expert": no bt i have been on tv
105. Got flowers for no reason:yes
106. Masturbated in a public place: no
107. Got so drunk you don't remember anything-no
108. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug:no
109. Performed on stage-yes
110. Been to Las Vegas-no
111. Recorded music-Yes
112. Eaten shark-no
113. Had a one-night stand:no
114. Stayed up all night talking to a stranger- not that i remember
115. Been through a Mirror House-Yes
116. Bought a house:no
117. Been in a combat zone:no
118. Buried one/both of your parents:no
119. Shaved or waxed your pubic hair off-Yes
120. Been on a cruise ship:no
121. Spoken more than one language fluently:no
122. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone:yes
123. Peed somewhere other than a bathroom-Yes
124. Performed in Rocky Horror:no
125. Jumped off a boat-Yes
126. Raised children:no
127. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy: no
128. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour:no
129. Created and named your own constellation of stars-no
130. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country:no
131. Found out something significant that your ancestors did:no
132. Confused a dream with something that actually happened:Yes
132. Watched movies all day-Yes
133. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over:no
134. ... more than once?: no
135. Walked across a bridge-yes
136. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking-Yes
137. Had an abortion or your female partner did:no
138. Had plastic surgery:no
139. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived-yes
140. Wrote articles for a large publication: no
141. Lost over 100 pounds: no
142. Been so depressed you cared about nothing: yes
143. ...gotten over it: yes
144. Petted a stingray: no
145. Broken someone's heart: no
146. Helped an animal give birth- no
147. Been fired or laid off from a job- no
148. Won money on a TV game show- no
149. Broken a bone-8 times: no
150. Killed a human being- no
151. Gone on an African photo safari: no
152. Ridden a motorcycle- yes
153. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100mph: no
154. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced: no
155. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol-about every weekend: no
156. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild- no
157. Ridden a horse-Yes
158. Had major surgery: no
159. Had sex on a moving train: no
160. Had a snake as a pet: no
161. Done drugs- once
162. Found a lost wallet or purse- yes
163. ...and returned it- yes
164. Cried yourself to sleep: yes
165. ...over somebody. yes
166. Ridden in a canoe -yes
167. Eaten kangaroo meat- no
168. Petted a lizard-Yes
169. Been a sperm or egg donor: no
170. Eaten sushi-Yes
171. Had your picture in the newspaper-Yes
172. Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime-no
173. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about- yes
174. Gotten someone fired for their actions- no
175. Listened to a song over& over to ease the pain- yes
176. Parasailed-no
177. Changed your name-No
178. Ate a bug-no
179. Eaten fried green tomatoes???: no
180. Read The Iliad-Ues: no
181. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read-No
182. Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them-No
183. ... and gotten 86'ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you: no
184. Taught yourself art from scratch-No
185. Killed and prepared an animal for eating-no
186. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt- no
187. Skipped all your school reunions- no
188. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language-no
189. Built something out of snow other than a Snowman-Yes
190. Written your own computer language-no
191. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream- kinda
192. Had to put someone you love into hospice care-No
193. Built your own PC from parts-no
194. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you-No
195. Had a booth at a street fair- no
196. Dyed your hair: yeah
197. Been a DJ- no
198. Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal- no
199. Written your own role playing game-no
200. Been arrested-no
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Hey people. What is going on. Snow days rock!!! But i missed Jenny :( I went shopping today with my mom and she picked up Jenny a present. I got one present from me on Saturday. And I hoped she likes it. I am also thinking about doing someother things for her but I am not going to release any info!!! I went to Journeys today and got some dvs' that are brown and they look awesome. I can't wait to see jenny tomorrow
love you angel
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hey guys what is up nothing much here. So I thought I might share what I am going because no one has let me share all of my points or they just don't understand everything. Over the summer Breana turned 18. And she changed for the worst in my perspective. Philip and Jake came over one night to watch watch movies and hang out. Philip went off to try to find Breana and I had no idea what they were doing and I still have no idea till this day. Later that night she came in my room saying that she was going to run away from home. I first thought was holy crap. jake philip and I stood and that room for about 2 hours trying to explain to Breana that she wouldn't understand how much she would regret her decision later in life and how many people she would hurt because of it. I am angry at her to be honest b/c she has caused a tear in my heart so gigantic I don't know what steps there is to heal them. I mean she left any air condition on and inside her room on the floor. Which was basically committing arson. I could have died that night. My parents could have died, my sisters of 5 and 6 years old could have died, my autisitic brother could have died, and Jake and philip could have died. Its reality. I told Breana that she would be making a decision that could have haunted her for a long time. I mean my step mom is closer to me than ever and I feel that she is trying to steer me in the right direction. I mean she was doing drugs before she went in the army. Who knows she could have doing it the night she left. I mean my own mom said she knew that Breana was doing them before she went into the Army. I mean I feel that she really had no right to contact my friends. I mean I don't feel like they should be apart of this. I mean it was no joke about arson. My parents contacted the fire marshall to see about the air conditioner and whether or not it could have cause a fire. The fire marshall said it was very flammable. I was the first one to one the window in her room and that could have been my last breath. I mean the scary thing about it was that Breana told Jake Philip and I that she had taken the air conditioner out of her window and put it on the floor. We didn't think about a fire at that point. Jake is my best friend and for him to go through that as well hurt me inside. I mean my autistic brother was having soo much difficult one weekend b/c he felt that Breana had abandoned him. Patrick used to always protect Breana from her boyfriends and stick up for her. If Breana is a different person why doesn't she call and talk to my dad, I would want her to talk to him before she talks to me. If she really regrets what she did she should call. Right now I don't want to talk to her and if I do it would be after my birthday. I am going to try to have fun and hang out with my girlfriend. To be honest Kevin and Megan I did feel pressured to talk to my sister. I know you guys have a point but the reality is that I have to make my own decisions and when I am ready it is my decision. Thank you Jake for being open minded and I am sorry that you had to go through that. It is really late on a school night and I need to go to bed
love you jenny
thanks for talking to me about everything and it really helps to know that I have support from you. I don't think that I could get through it if it wasn't for you and my parents
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Hey guys what is up. Nothing much here. Yesterday was fun, but it wasn't the same without Jenny. I would have loved to go through every haunted maze with her At Busch Gardens. There was just something about yesterday that would have made it perfect for her and me. It being cold so I could warm her up. There was one part that she would have thought was hilarious. We passes a speaker and it scared the crap the out of me. I about went three-five feet in the air. It was great. But we got season passes for next year which is awesome. My parents invited Jenny next Friday so I might get to have my wish. And I am hoping they will allow us to go do what we want to do. But idn. I miss Jenny's face, her smile, the way we look at each, and the way we talk. There is nothin better than what we have right now. Yes my sister responded to one of my posts and that kind of bothers me b/c I don't know how she got my name. And really some of this stuff is personal and right now I am not ready to talk to her. I know she loves me but the hurt cannot be replaced. I mean I might get over it in time, but there is just something about it. Well I need to go.
I love you Jenny...... so much and don't forget that, I miss you and i hope Friday works out. Sleep well my angel
P.S. I got the Crazy Frog cd its addictive, kind of annoying, but awesome techno too.
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1. What color underwear are you wearing now? blue plaid
2. What are you listening to right now? Fall Out Boy
3. What are the last 2 digits in your phone number? 89
4. What was the last thing you ate? pizza
5. If you were a crayon what color would you be? blue or red
6. What is the weather right now? cold and rainy.
7. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? jenny
8. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? personality and facial expression.
9. Favorite type of Food? chinese
10. Do you drink? No
11. Do you smoke? No
12. Ever get so drunk you dont remember? Nope
13. Hair color? red died blonde
14. Eye color? Green
15. Do you wear contacts? no
16. Single? No
17. Favorite Month? July or August
18. Have you ever cried for no reason? Yes
19. Last Movie you Watched? the hollow
20. Favorite Day of the Year? my bday
21. Are you too shy to ask someone out? Yes.
22. Hugs or Kisses? kisses
23. Chocolate or Vanilla? Vanilla
24. Do you want your friends to respond? Sure
25. Who is most likely to respond? jenny hopefully
26. Who is least likely to respond? idn
27. What books are you reading? none
28. Piercings? none
29. Tatoos? No
29. Fav. Movie(s)? Nap Dynamite A lot of other that i cant think of
30. Fav. baseball Team(s)Red Sox
31. Any pets? a dog a cat a lot of fish and a frog
32. AIM? louisalpfan
33. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn? butter and salted
35. Favorite Flower? lilacs
36. Ever fired a gun? Yes
37. Do you like to travel by plane as opposed to car? No
38. Right handed or left handed? left
39. How many pillows do you sleep with? four but use only one
40. Who are you missing right now? jenny
41. Who do you think is gorgeous? jenny
Bands you like:
A: All American Rejects
B: Breaking Benjamin
C: Coheed and Cambria captian jack
D:
E: Eagles, The
F: Fall Out Boy
G: Gorillas
H: H.I.M.
I: Incubus
J: Jimmy Eat World
K: Killers, The and kaw
L: Lifehouse
M:
N: Nirvana
O: Offspring, The
P: Papa Roach
Q:
R: Ramones, The
S: Sugarcult
T: Three Days Grace
U:
V:
W: Weezer
X:
Y: Yellowcard
Z:
20 years ago I...
1. I wasn't born..
2.
3.
10 years ago I...
1. I was 5
2. I was in kindergarten
3.
5 years ago I...
1. Was 10
2. lived in ny
3 years ago I...
1. I was in 7th Grade.
2. went to louisa for the first year
3. met jenny for the first time
2 years ago I...
1. I was 13
2. I was in 8th grade.
3. .
1 year ago I...
1. Was 14
2. was heartbroken
3. fell in love for the first time
So far this year I...
1. I'm 15.
2. I am in love.
3. I am truly happy
Yesterday I...
1. Went to school.
2. talked to jenny
3. Listened to Music.
Today I...
1. Went to School.
2. Went to afterschool rehearsal
3. was sad and tired
Tomorrow I will...
1. go to my sisters bday party
2. have fun
3. miss jenny
In the next year I will...
1. hopefully be with jenny soon
2. Be happy.
3. Go to 11th grade
L A S T . . .
01. Last Cigarette: A couple of months ago. & Never again.
02. Last Kiss: Today.
03. Last Cry: idr
04. Last Library Book Checked Out: Invasion
05. Last Movie Seen In a Theatre: Serenity
06. Last Book Read: Invasion
07. Last Cuss Word Uttered: i don't remember
08. Last Beverage Drank: dr. pepper
09. Last Food Consumed: pizza
11. Last TV Show Watched: espn
12. Last Time Showered: This morning.
13. Last shoes worn: vans
14. Last CD Played: itg
15. Last Soda Drank: Dr. Pepper
16. Last Thing Written: idn
17. Last Words Spoken: to my parents
18. Last Sleep: last night
21. Last Ice Cream Eaten: french vanilla
22. Last Time Wanting to Die: This summer with what happened with friends and stuff that I did and my sister hurting my family
26. Last Big Car Ride: to va beach
27. Last Crush: jenny
28. Last Annoyance: probably with people on the bus
30. Last Time told off: I don't know.
32. Last Web Site Visited: Livejournal
Relationships/Friendships
33. Are You Going Out With Anyone (Who):jenny. he he.
34. Do You Have A Crush (Who): jenny
35. Who Is Your Best Friend: jenny, jake, stephen, jessi, bryant, liz, and rion.
36. Who Is Your Funniest/Funnest Friend: jake
37. Who Is The Most Beautiful and Ugliest Friend: jenny and jake is ugliest jk.
38. Who Is Your Most Trusting/Least Trusting Friend: jenny and sometimes jake.
39. Who Is Your Most Smartest/Non Smartest Friend: hannah
40. Who Is Your Tallest/Shortest Friend: Jake, & Hannah.
41. Have You Ever Liked Your Friend: Yes
42. Do You Have Any Online Friends: Yes
43. I Know: That I wish to see jenny soon.
44. I want: to.. play stepmania and kiss jenny
45. I wish: I could hold jenny
46. I Have: more than I realize
47. I Hate: heartbreak and not being able to express what i feel
48. I Miss: jenny
49. I Fear: heartbreak and death
50. I Hear: music
51. I Search: for love and reason
52. I Love: Jenny
53. I Ache: In my head..
54. I Care: about Jenny and my closest friend
55. I Always: try to figure out things and i always to try to make my relationship the best.
56. I Dance: at vcc on itg
57. I Cry: when people die and my girlfriend and my closest friends are hurt
58. I Do Not Always: know what to say. I don't always know when to make a move.
59. I Write: when I feel passionate
60. I Confuse: myself. and everyone
61. I Can Usually Be Found: with jenny and friend.
62. I need: to be happy and I need Jenny
63. I feel: I am going to lose innocence when I am ready and when its spontaneous and the perfect time hopefully. and hopefully i will know what to do.
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Well today was really really sad. I wish I could come up with a poem on the top of my head about it. But I want to sit down and write some words that will pour out of me. I mean its just sooo hard hearing that news today. I wish I knew Jordan. I wish I could tell him not to take his go-cart out. I wish he didn't have to go that way. I mean from what it sounded it like he had a really bright future. I mean I can feel the pain that a lot of my friends are feeling. Like Liz she went out with Jordan and I mean I just am soo sorry that she had to go through that. I mean I believe that Jordan is in better place and I hope that he is living a better life one without pain. I don't want him to hurt. I mean some of the problems that I have been dealing with my sisters and my sister running away seem small. If there is anything that I can help you with Liz don't hesitate to talk to me about it.
I love you Jenny thanks for the poem it helped alot
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[20 Oct 2005|07:46pm] |
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Hey guys what is going on nmh. I am talking to my mom on the phone right now is she is kind of out of it. Today was pretty good I wish could have seen Jenny more today. I was expecting what happened at the buses with me and Jenny it was a good surprise lol. Today has been hard for me and I haven't told jenny yet but my sister wrote me a letter. Anyway I wish I could talk to her soon. My mom is struggling and so am I. She lives in NC and she is in the hospital. She is low on income b/c she has 1 kidney so she has disability. So her boyfriend is abusive vocally unlike her old boyfriend who used to beat her physically. And I actually saw it happen. So idn I hope she is better and I hope she kicks that asshole out. Right now things with my old sisters don't look good. The only thing that is good right now are my friends and my girlfriend. People like Jake, Jessi, Stephen, Hannah, Liz, and oddly enough Rion. I love Jenny and she helps me strive on. Well Im gtg love you sooo much Jenny
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| movies and vcc and the best part....... jenny |
[15 Oct 2005|05:40pm] |
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Hey guys. Today was great. The psats were hell. But the rest of the day definately made up for it. Jenny and I went to go see Serenity. It was awesome. Yeah rion was right it was better than stars wars three. Then we went to Vcc and I got a blizzard from dq. Also no one was playing itg soo I got to play alone. I did Summer in Belize and an 82 on normal and got an 82, then I did xuxa on normal and got an 87, then I did land of the rising sun and got a 77. I did ddr before that but it was horrible though Jenny got a kick out of it lol. It was hilarious. Then on the way home we listened to romantic soft rock from lifehouse and it reminded me why relationships are soo great. Yeah I love being with Jenny through everything. Ahhhhhh tiredness sinks in. well I am going to i love you jenny soo much.
Ian
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| This Weekend |
[13 Oct 2005|09:21pm] |
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Well I have some plans for this this weekend that hopefully I will be able to do. On Saturday I have to take the 3 hour long psats so that is going to be brain draining. But after that I hope to go to vcc with jenny from like 1 until 7 or whenever is convenient for her and her sister. I will happy though b/c it would be my first actually time my parents say yes w/o parental supervision. My mom was also trying to play a trick on me. She was trying to call the home phone from her cell phone and scare my brother and I but I knew it was her. And my mom was like jenny tastes good meaning that she ate her b/c she was playing around. I was like okay. Then I said yeah she does taste good and my parents thought i was being perverted. But really i wasn't. Anyway jake and stephen might come over on sat. night. well i gtg see ya
Love you jenny
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[09 Oct 2005|08:06pm] |
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Hey guys. What is going on. Yesterday was pretty sweet. Jenny came over. I am soo glad her dad said yes. She came over around 5 and we watched some of Stuck on You and talked to my parents. Then pizza came around 6 and it was from Joes place and it was pretty good I guess. Anyway around 8 we watched The Amityville Horror and it was pretty freaky. Jenny and I snuggled together for most of the movie despite the fact my parents we in my room. Which I kind of knew that they were going to be watching us like hawks. My sisters were climbling on me half the time and they were total show offs. And my mom dog Pumpkin loved Jenny. I am thinking that animals have a special insite on who they like. Well hopefully she come over again real soon.
love you jenny
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[06 Oct 2005|08:33pm] |
hey guys whats up. tomorrow should be an awesome day we are going to u of r. And it should be sweet b/c rion is letting me borrow his dvd player and he burnt me an 8 hour cd. which is sweet. and i also can't wait b/c of me and jennys one month. well i am going now.
i love you jenny
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| New Update finally (lol) |
[05 Oct 2005|08:38pm] |
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hey people sorry i haven't updated in an eternity. Things have been going well recently. Its Jenny and I's one month this friday. Its seems longer which i guess is a good think. I am so happy how things are going. I couldn't be happier with Jenny. I hope that we last for long time. Anyway school was okay nothing real important happened except for me hurting my elbow again. Although its not in that much pain. I hope that jenny will be able to come over this weekend so we can movies although jake doesn't think thats all we are going to be doing. lol. well im going to go call jenny.
I love you Jenny
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| The game and long juicy stuff bout me |
[24 Sep 2005|12:23am] |
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Well tonight was okay for the most part. Some parts were awesome and other parts were uber sucky. My dad did say it was okay that I could go to Stephens bday party which is awesome. Oh yeah and we kicked Courtlands ass. That just goes to show you can't threaten the lions. Anyways some depressing parts were when Jenny and I found out that Jack busted his head open, which really shocked both of us. It cool though b/c Stephen said he talked to Jack and that is okay and that he still is going to stephens bday party. Jenny was depressed which I can understand as well as I b/c she was depressed. My pain is her pain.Liz was also acting really weird idn but she seemed really different and that maybe she didn't like Jenny. If that is the case I would hope she could be honest but whatever. I loved hanging out with Jenny tonight despite the fact that things were somewhat depressing. I just hope in the future we can hang out more afterschool. Yeah I also didn't get the responsibility talk but I got a lecture on how my dad thinks I may be anxious to have sex and how it is good that I should wait b/c being in relationship when sex is the main contact the relationship can crumble. Which he is right about. He also asked me how I feel about having sex and I told him if I ever was in that postition I would want to think that I would act responsible and prepare myself. And I also that if I ever were to have sex I would want it for more than pleasure. I want it to soooo much more. And I to have it someone that loves me unconditionally. Anyway its late and I am rambling. Its frickin 12 in the morning lol. i gtg I love you jenny ps I am getting itg from anna the next home game. Yeah illegal bootleg games are fun night
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| Happiness And Bitterness |
[22 Sep 2005|08:26pm] |
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Hey What is up nothing much here. Sorry no update in a while. I have been uber busy. Yesterday was pretty cool I drank my first Boo-Koo and had Chinese food. It was yummy. The only depressing part of the day was that I didn't get to see Jenny. I love her soo much. I am also uber happy b/c my parents let me go to the game tomorrow night. That mean no supervision for 3 hours. yay! Anyway I love how things are going I am getting straight a's I am in love and I finally feel like things are working out. I have a feeling I am going to get a responsibility talk. I want to start writing poetry again. I miss it. I am Young Pip in Great Expectations. Woot. Anyway Im still bitter toward Philip. Idn I just think that he would anything for sex. And idn maybe it might get him mad that I am writing. B/c i almost got grounded for six months b/c my parents found out that was he lying about what philips excuse was for why were late. So now they aren't letting me hang out with philip. But hopefully it will get better in the future i am just kind of mad he didn't care if i got in trouble. And also that he was risking between our friendship. I think rachel is cool though. I don't know ruins things when jake philip go to vcc b/c i know I can't hang with kevin and philip right now but anyway i am going to go
I love you Jenny
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